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its amazing how humans can adapt so easily. maybe that's why i haven't had that home for the past 9 years. now i see clearly.
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[09 Sep 2005|11:59pm] |
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i know you're working in me. bring it!
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[13 Aug 2005|01:16am] |
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"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28)."
give me something to rejoice in your glory, jesus
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[27 Jul 2005|09:52pm] |
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beans and rice for jesus christ.
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[17 Jul 2005|03:02pm] |
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pura vida!
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[13 Jul 2005|03:11am] |
this sort of love overwhelms me.
"you know, grandpa told them today that you're his favorite granddaughter."
"oh, sabrina. we're always praying for you, if you're here, there or yonder."
"we decided you can't leave because we like you too much."
"i'm always thinking about my baby."
"its sad that you're leaving, but good for you. you need this."
"god just keeps blessing you and blessing you. when will it end? probably never."
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[12 Jul 2005|12:48pm] |
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i just had the most intense praying session of my life. open your mind.
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[07 Jun 2005|02:58pm] |
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costa rica's approaching intensity has really sobered me. i shouldn't go if i cannot make the simple commitment of devotion. but i'm still going to go and knowing me, i won't make the commitment. i'm going to go read my bible. [?]
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[05 Jun 2005|05:27pm] |
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i slept in a pew!
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[31 May 2005|11:50pm] |
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rushing to close early
only to meet disappointment
a room full of sick people
tears slowly falling
as i make my way back home
sickness is horrible.
i cant sleep.
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[31 May 2005|01:49am] |
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today i slept in. hung out with martain.
then i worked..and andy and adrien visited. and martain.
then after work ben played the soundtrack to my counting inventory and we played chess outside on the ground until 1 am.
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[26 May 2005|12:10am] |
awkward, awkward, awkward.
i'm still praying that these feelings would disappear.
it's hard to remember that Jesus still loves me in all of my faults: laziness, procrastination, irresponsibility, rudeness, and anger:
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. (colossians 3:1-7)
nnnoooo cussing!
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[24 May 2005|12:36am] |
im trying, praying, hoping, that God would be my portion.
i expected something to happen tonight. it did, but from the completely opposite direction.
nick asked me to hang out with him on wednesday.
im always getting little cuts and bruises all over. its hot.
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estamos aqui en costa rica
para ser sus amigos
estamos aqui para darles amor
y darles risa
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[18 May 2005|12:16am] |
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today someone told me that i write good poetry and that i should write more often. it was a really nice compliment.
seth has been really nice to me lately.
i'm so bad at budgeting my money. its really horrible how much money i spend. i need to go back to the olden days where i just cashed my paychecks when i needed money and i had a bundle in my room and i'd take a twenty like every week.
i procrastinate on virtually every task put in front of me. the only thing i've been dedicated to is guitar.
i'm slowly re-bulding my relationship with God, after this long period of pretty much ignoring Him. i stopped going to church and praying. i never really read my Bible to begin with, but at one time i did everyday. for a few months i was around a lot of drugs and negativity and my faith really suffered. but now slowly but surely i'm starting to put my trust in Him and trying not to worry about things as much. i really dont understand how someone can read their Bible every day. i dont do anything every day except eat, sleep, talk to andy, and go on the internet. i guess i should exchange the internet for my Bible.
there's this book called Not Even a Hint by joshua harris. i suggest every Christian to read it. its about lust and how serious it really is. it totally opened my eyes to see how i was lying to myself and destroying my body. go read it now! ill let you borrow it.
"Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body" (1 Corinthians 6:18-20 NIV).
another nice compliment from taylor:
changewelove: sabrina you are such a great friend
changewelove: i hope you know that
changewelove: everybody you know called me just now and told me to tell you
changewelove: they said they would have told you themselves, but i was talking too much
changewelove: because you listen
changewelove: and you are open minded
changewelove: and you have cute little feet
changewelove: and you can make awesome pizzas
changewelove: and like a million other things too
changewelove: im just tired and cant remember
:)
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its strange how moods fluctuate so quickly.
its strange how a life can disappear in a moment.
and the internet makes you feel they're still there.
its amazing how one minute you're totally over it, and the next you're face down on a bed.
i stare at my reflection in her guitar.
i run my mouth, but at the end of the day, i don't feel any better.
i'm always waiting.
my tendancy to procrastinate causes a mild hatred of myself.
i'm going to vanguard next year. uhh... i can't do this.
costa rica in a few weeks. will i even help anyone?
my opinion of myself is not very positive. i guess thats not good. but there are things i need to fix before i can start on that road to self acceptance. i will never settle for who i am now. yet i dont have the commitment to change.
i'm not jealous, just disappointed in myself for not acheiving to the level i'm capable of.
graduation will be upsetting.
prom is coming up. i forgot why i wanted to go.
sleep is good. i wish i could sleep all day tomorrow. doesn't the Bible say not to love sleep?
i know my commitments have been an attempt to prove my self control or my command over myself rather than a passionate longing to do what God wants. it's all been in vain.
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[08 May 2005|07:56pm] |
"A girl should hide her heart in the heart of God so a man should have to go there and find it."
--unknown
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[06 May 2005|12:55am] |
i will run when i cannot walk
i will sing when there is no song
i will pray when there is no prayer
i will listen when i cannot hear
sitting in the waiting room of silence
waiting for that still soft voice i know
offering my words up to the rooftop to Your heart
trusting that this closet's where You are
Lord i know if i change my mind
You will change my heart in time
Sovereign Lord this time's from You
so i sit in the waiting room of silence
cause its all about You
i will fight when i cannot feel
i will trust when You dont seem real
i will tell when i cannot speak
i will step when i cannot see
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